Like Tears in Rain

[Mr. Lee Hammer]

1. What small thing do you change in your world?

2. How would it improve life in your world?

3. Importantly, how do you keep the timeline stable so that important events still occur… you don't wipe yourself out of the timeline… that sort of thing.

Olivia sits down and starts to think. Her life has been something of a mess socially. Being treated like an outcast for most of her life had left her quite broken. But with the possibility of death staring right at her, it makes her think: what if she was more bold in the past? What if she grew up around more nicer people? Would she still be nervous around others? Would she be more confident? All these thoughts rushing around in her head, she decides what she wants to do.

I was never the confrontational type. I've let people push me around so many times, but I never got the nerve to fight back. Or even just brushed them off and tried to seek out the right people. I was just pushed away into some hole where everyone looks past me like I wasn't even there. And now there is the possibility that I'll be erased from existence, but no one would even notice my lack of presence. I guess the first thing would be that I'd have more self-confidence in myself. I'm not the type who will fight back. But maybe if I didn't let the ones who were mean to me wear me down. That I just ignored what they said, not let their words swell inside me. And instead focus on some of my more stronger points, I think I would have had an easier time trying to connect with others.

She tilts her head down in thought before looking back up.

I guess secondly, it would have made me a lot happier. Like that bond I've had with Amy. It felt really nice connecting with someone like that. Maybe I would have done so a lot earlier. Had more friends, go out and do things together. Just enjoy myself more and form connections. And maybe.... just maybe.... find someone to have a family with....

And looking a bit more cautious on her third thing...

I'm definitely not the one who wants to start fights. I'm not the kind of woman who wants to sink down to the bully's level. More often than not, that would make things a lot worse. And those same people might even get their revenge and look for me and give me a very brutal beatdown or perhaps something even worse. Something I don't even want to imagine.... I'd definitely channel my frustrations in a healthy way. Make sure I don't end up like those who want to bring me down. I'm better than that. And I wouldn't let myself be like them. Just embrace the ones who are willing to love me for who I am.