03-23-2021, 07:43:03 AM
Fucking. Vels. You see these people Vivi? Ranma is among the worst, but this is how they all act. They have their weird morals, giving rights to the dead, NOT THE UNDEAD who deserve the same rights as all else that lives, but the the DEAD, with this and that, then they decide that anyone who stands against them on that must be an entitled egotist or whatever! Then they're like "oh obviously this must be your hell because you can't kill." But NO! IT'S NOT! It's my hell because THEY'RE THERE WITH ME, constantly criticizing me for not conforming to their frankly completely fucked expectations of what someone should be! I don't criticize them for their fucking weird-ass behaviors, and I expect to be offered the same courtesy! But NOoO! They have to decide that because MY choices and MY society and who I AM don't align with their view of what people SHOULD be, that because I COOPERATED WITH THE HOST in their killing game and made attempts as was requested of me BY THE HOST, that I'm some entitled egotist! It's like they can't fucking comprehend that I don't think my life is worth MORE than theirs because I'm so eager to preserve what I have! They're like "no you can't ask the host if you can get special treatment" and I'm like "yeah but I'm going to, in case I can, which would be nice" and they're like "NO YOU'RE A MONSTER AAAAA" and it's like... like... UGH!
Kellensea slams her fist down on the arm of her chair dramatically, accidently breaking it.
Uhh... oops. Point is, that's like... that's like saying "hey you can't ask for help ever because I DON'T WANNA ASK so YOU SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO". Like, like fucking... UGH. I wasn't stopping them for also asking for rule changes, they have every right to lobby for them! But NO! They don't WANT to! So they SIT THERE and TWIDDLE THEIR FUCKING THUMBS, and then get angry at me when I don't JOIN them in sitting there doing nothing to attempt to improve my situation! SERIOUSLY! Just because I don't think they deserve a fucking reward for being alive?! Congratufuckinglations, you're not dead! You're entitled to MORE BEING NOT DEAD I guess. I take MEASURES to keep myself safe and alive, and suddenly I'm a COWARD?! Yeah, I bet they don't think it's cowardly to live in a house to hide from the rain, to eat food to avoid starving, but to wear armor to not get stabbed? To barricade a room shut to make it difficult for someone so inclined to break in and try to stab me? That's COWARDICE!? What the fuck is wrong with these people? I explain my views, and they're like "nuh uh your views are wrong because they don't include the part where I'm the center of the fucking universe" and go right back to "entitled egotist", without noticing that I'M NOT AT THE CENTER OF THE FUCKING UNIVERSE IN THEM EITHER. All I say is that I did all kinds of cool shit in the past, and that they didn't do that cool shit, and that that cool shit that I did means that I have experience dealing with a specific situation, but then they're like "well, I've never dealt with that situation, but clearly I'm equally qualified" and then I say "no, because I've actually done this before" they scream "EGOTIST" again! Then I bring up ALL THESE PLACES where they're wrong or points they haven't considered, and then they say "nah too wordy, EGOTIST"
Apparently somewhat calmer after her rant, Kellensea stands up, pushes away the old chair, and drags a new, not-broken one over.
Anyway, that's why they're horrible, and why Ranma is fucking awful specifically. Just because it isn't home, I'm not supposed to be treated like a living entity? Vivi, in the inevitable uprising of marginalized adventurers in places where they are marginalized, I hope you are spared, as much as I hope Ranma dies. You, at least, have tolerated me to a greater extent than most of the people in that game. Hell, let me tell you, this one guy? He went out and murdered someone in an attempt to frame me because he was all like "oh I don't like her because she's playing the game as presented to her" and he didn't even try to deal with his actual problem, ME? And then I'M the coward for taking measures to ensure my security. It's... the thought processes of these people just seem to default to "blame and shame the one who is different from us for all the problems". Like, seriously, I'm like 80% sure that's some kind of victim blaming. "Oh this person said the adventurer being different was the motive for their doing of murder when we didn't want a murder, better blame the adventurer for being so different that that person murdered." Ugh.
Kellensea finally stops talking for a bit, seemingly exhausted by having to deal with "these people".
Kellensea slams her fist down on the arm of her chair dramatically, accidently breaking it.
Uhh... oops. Point is, that's like... that's like saying "hey you can't ask for help ever because I DON'T WANNA ASK so YOU SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO". Like, like fucking... UGH. I wasn't stopping them for also asking for rule changes, they have every right to lobby for them! But NO! They don't WANT to! So they SIT THERE and TWIDDLE THEIR FUCKING THUMBS, and then get angry at me when I don't JOIN them in sitting there doing nothing to attempt to improve my situation! SERIOUSLY! Just because I don't think they deserve a fucking reward for being alive?! Congratufuckinglations, you're not dead! You're entitled to MORE BEING NOT DEAD I guess. I take MEASURES to keep myself safe and alive, and suddenly I'm a COWARD?! Yeah, I bet they don't think it's cowardly to live in a house to hide from the rain, to eat food to avoid starving, but to wear armor to not get stabbed? To barricade a room shut to make it difficult for someone so inclined to break in and try to stab me? That's COWARDICE!? What the fuck is wrong with these people? I explain my views, and they're like "nuh uh your views are wrong because they don't include the part where I'm the center of the fucking universe" and go right back to "entitled egotist", without noticing that I'M NOT AT THE CENTER OF THE FUCKING UNIVERSE IN THEM EITHER. All I say is that I did all kinds of cool shit in the past, and that they didn't do that cool shit, and that that cool shit that I did means that I have experience dealing with a specific situation, but then they're like "well, I've never dealt with that situation, but clearly I'm equally qualified" and then I say "no, because I've actually done this before" they scream "EGOTIST" again! Then I bring up ALL THESE PLACES where they're wrong or points they haven't considered, and then they say "nah too wordy, EGOTIST"
Apparently somewhat calmer after her rant, Kellensea stands up, pushes away the old chair, and drags a new, not-broken one over.
Anyway, that's why they're horrible, and why Ranma is fucking awful specifically. Just because it isn't home, I'm not supposed to be treated like a living entity? Vivi, in the inevitable uprising of marginalized adventurers in places where they are marginalized, I hope you are spared, as much as I hope Ranma dies. You, at least, have tolerated me to a greater extent than most of the people in that game. Hell, let me tell you, this one guy? He went out and murdered someone in an attempt to frame me because he was all like "oh I don't like her because she's playing the game as presented to her" and he didn't even try to deal with his actual problem, ME? And then I'M the coward for taking measures to ensure my security. It's... the thought processes of these people just seem to default to "blame and shame the one who is different from us for all the problems". Like, seriously, I'm like 80% sure that's some kind of victim blaming. "Oh this person said the adventurer being different was the motive for their doing of murder when we didn't want a murder, better blame the adventurer for being so different that that person murdered." Ugh.
Kellensea finally stops talking for a bit, seemingly exhausted by having to deal with "these people".
I am the They who says it!